Have recently switched to posting at tumblr. Enjoying the formats for posting, possibly might switch over there more permanently.

P.S. We have a cat!


Hey, Interweb.

Long time no see.

One of the things I love about programming is that at times, it’s very reminiscent to my years building websites. Except all the sharp things I ever had a website do, I can make a program do tenfold. I can create a program that does exactly what I want and I can make it pretty to boot! Needless to say, I’m still blissfully in love with my job and my tickets have been bought—flights have been booked, schmancy hotel reservations made—for my upcoming trip to the FileMaker Developer Conference. Go me!

I’ve basically been working a lot but right now that’s a good thing. I’ve also been on a Remission / Ain’t It Dead Yet binge with some healthy doses of the Birthday Party’s Hee Haw and Live Seeds, which is such a phenomenally good recording and I just can’t get enough of it. Ever. Especially “New Morning.” It would make me die happy, sigh.

I desperately want Betty to go to Rome with Gio because that’s what I would do. And I cried horribly when Amber died. I mean, I sobbed.

Right now we’re listening to this amazing live recording of Otis Redding. I can’t imagine being in a club somewhere and hearing this for the first time. How could you not dance? How could you not tap your feet and shake your shoulders and stop what you’re doing and be absolutely stunned?

Sane, sane, they’re all insane…

I’m back on the med wagon and never again shall we part. (Well, that’s not true but next time it won’t be like Thanksgiving leftovers.) (Although I love Thanksgiving leftovers so that’s not really a fitting simile.) Today was a struggle but I’ve still got a pulse and my head has been reigned back in. Ducky! As I mentioned last night, it’s actually been a slightly interesting experience being off my meds as it can be difficult to tell that they’re really doing anything when I’m on them. Because everything is fine. And isn’t fine normal? So aren’t I normal? Somehow it’s reassuring to know that the drugs are doing something and I am still crazy. Of course, this isn’t really what I’d like to consider a long term solution. But for now, it’ll do.

Thankfully, it’s true what they say about raining and pouring and even the reverse holds true. Things have been going remarkably well for me lately and tomorrow I start my first freelance programming gig. I’m very excited. One of the major challenges of my regular job is not only am I learning a new language but I’m also coming in at a very late stage in the development process and sometimes it’s difficult to follow all of the relationships. This new project will also be a custom solution but I’ll be working on it from the get go. Yayayay.

Surely, it must be that I paid homage to the Patron Saint Rabbitrabbit this morning that this month has started out so well.

There’ll be no sadness / There’ll be no sorrow

Last night I tried two new things. I drank a “Flirtini” and I painted my nails a fairly bold shade of pink. (Nars’ nail polish in “Schiap.”) The Flirtini was okay but I love how glossy and smooth and shockingly pink my nails are. I keep running my fingertips over them and it feels so lovely.

It looks like this month is going to end on Bruce Springsteen / Einstürzende Neubauten notes. The highest, most shining ones being “Drive All Night” and “Steh auf Berlin,” the latter of which sounds absolutely delightful but the construction sounds across the hall from my office—I could do without that noise.

Recent feed reads include Who Are We? Coming of Age on Antidepressants which seemed especially relevant because I accidentally went cold turkey on my meds. I was still okay on day four but I’ve been feeling my condition slowly deteriorate since then. It’s been an interesting experience but I’m finally picking up my refill tomorrow.

Anyway, I’ve just finished gorging myself on Santitas tortilla chips, Gefen Coconut Flavored Macaroons and cranberry juice. (Last night I had duck with almond-encrusted brie!) I amend my previous report on music month-end because today I was also Live Seeds obsessed. Go into a little space, shut the door and play “The Weeping Song,” “Jack The Ripper” and “New Morning” as loud as your poor ear drums can handle.

I have the cake!

Life has been lovely—truly pleasant. I’m still—quite oddly—very over the moon about my job. Not only do I have the pleasure of enjoying my work, I also get to wear great outfits every day. Yummy, I’m glad I finally get to eat the damn cake.

Building a financial management program for myself has become a popular extracurricular activity, soon to be joined by either running or racquetball since I finally bought a proper pair of sneakers today. At Diff’s somewhat insistence, the pair I ended up buying were pink. The big sneakers in the sky must have been smiling down on me at that moment because the pink cross-trainers also fit my budget and non-aesthetic needs.

I’ve been utterly obsessed with more or lessly one mix all month. I keep expecting Stork to tell me to turn it off. It has a core of day-in-day-outers and a peripheral of nonessentials which are sometimes themselves reoccurring. The main core is Nick Cave & the Bad Seeds, Bruce Springsteen, Einstürzende Neubauten and Goon Moon. Right now my formula is one album, one artist. The regulars are wearing their Abattoir Blues Tour (I picture myself as Warren Ellis), Nebraska, Kollaps (some of Blixa’s vocal movements put me completely beside myself with delight) and Licker’s Last Leg album covers. The rest is made up of an Alien Sex Field best-of (practically a regular on the rotation), Billy Bragg’s Taxman, I Say I Say I Say by Erasure (which came out the same year as the following album and I owned them both even then) and Portrait of an American Family. Other recent second fiddles include The Tear Garden (especially Last Man), Nine Inch Nails’ Still, Welcome to My Nightmare, Smashing Pumpkins and Juju by Siouxsie & the Banshees. Now that I have the cake, I’m piling the icing on pretty thick. I love how reliably music can take a good thing and make it even better.

What have you been listening to?

Isn’t she beautiful?

Happy Earth Day: Beautiful Pictures of Our Planet

My life is awesome today.

Incredible day. High of 78°. Loved my outfit. Solved all the problems that came up by myself. Didn’t realize I knew how to fix them. I’m learning! Want to build a program for everything. Shuffled Henry’s Dream (Nick Cave), Halber Mensch (Neubauten) and The Last Man To Fly (Tear Garden). All day. This week’s epiphany: holy shit, I’m learning to build software! Look at me, on the career path. How did that happen? Left work with my closest friends. Sipping on a hazelnut mocha with the door open. Eating spinach salad with bacon, eggs and avocado for dinner. My life is awesome today.

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